silentmadness246

Throughout last year i have matured a lot in my drawing journey from just doodling casually to turning this into a passion and practicing as much as i can even though some days i slip even though i chose to give all my time to drawing i miss playing my video games  silent hill HD collection, god of war, fallout 3, fallout new vegas, skyrim, oblivion, dark souls the list is almost endless it's pretty hard to make time for video games because i chose to practice every day of the week with not only drawing but other things as well but today im trying something a bit different my goal now is to just focus on practicing one thing instead of learning multiple things at once it takes a lot of tension off my mind but at the same time after i get that done i have nothing else to do for the day i wouldn't mind any advice from other artist that can help me mange my time

Hey guys, silent madness here. And for the past few days, ive been tied down due to work, and mostly procrastination. So i haven’t been posting much, even though i set a deadline a few days ago for more context to be added here. I feel bad because not only did i not do what i had promised, it makes me look like a dude who does not follow through with his word. Which is not the person i am. I just feel so pressured at times that i just give up. it may not look like it judging by the post i make, but in real life, I’m not a really confident person. I’m awkward, weird, i have poor social skills, i studder, the list goes on and on. And too be honest with you all, i’m actually shocked at some of the things i pulled off near the end of 2016 and this year because i started to believe in myself. Like when i made that post about my opinion on fanart, i didn’t know what to expect. I thought i was going to get people telling me i didn’t know what i was talking about, and lots of hate. But instead i got a ton of support. Followers,  reblogs, likes, ect. I was just sharing my thoughts after reading a section in a blog about getting better at drawing. That part in the blog really was an inspiration to the post i made about fanart. But anyway for everyone who has followed me, rebloged my work or my post, or hell even liked my shit lol stay for the ride. I want to share with you all not pictures on a piece of paper, but stories you can look at and say, what does this mean, or what was the madman behind this. But anyway, i’ll make another post in a bit. Just wanted to get that off my chest. So i hopefully don’t lose you guys. I love all my fellow artist and non artists followers alike. God bless.

Hello everyone, i know i've been inactive here for a few days, and that was because i had lost my phone. Thankfully the lord blessed me with a new one yesterday. But during that period i've been pretty anxious over the whole situation. Strangely not because of the phone itself, but because all my personal information was on the device. Thankfully i got over it. i almost got all my accounts and passwords reseted, i decided to get back on some projects, and some other things in my life. So to start things off, i thought it would be a good idea to share a post i made yesterday on my tumblr. It's just something that came to me really. It's just my two cents on fanart. To be honest, i don't think i was as clear as i could have been because I'm not a very good talker. So i'm thinking about redoing it sometime in the future. But anyway here it straight from thumblr I copied and pasted everything because I was feeling kinda lazy lol enjoy.  Hey guys, silent madness here. As i said yesterday when i made my last post, i want to talk about fanart, and how doing too much of it can keep us from being honest with ourselves as  artist. Now i am by no means bashing the use of fanart or saying that we shouldn’t do it. I admit i like drawing fanart myself from time to time and actually, the picture that i was working on was fanart ironically but, it’s something that i’m going to not do as much because like i said it can keep us from being honest with ourselves. let me give an example of what I’m talking about. OK so imagine that you are an upcoming artist on Instagram, thumblr, Facebook whatever, and you start posting pictures of all your own original artwork. So far you have posted alot of artwork, but nobody has really noticed you. Suddenly, you notice a new TV series, or anime that has become pretty popular. So in order to get noticed, you decide to draw Fanart. Almost neglecting your own original unique style just to get a little popular. Similar to being somebody your not just to fit in. Now before I continue this is not always the reason why people draw fanart. Many people do it because there passionate about the style of a show,  they like to create there own characters within the universe of the show, or because there just a fan of the show. like i said, there’s nothing wrong with drawing Fanart, not saying that people shouldn’t do it. But if we do it too much we miss out on what we really can accomplish as artist. so i want to ask you all this. Why are you doing fanart? is it because you love the show?  are you  passionate about its style? Does it motivate you to draw more, or is because you want people to people to give you likes and comments on Facebook, Instagram, tumblr etc.  And this is where the dishonesty comes into play. All you are is a slave with a pencil, drawing art for people who probably could care less about you expect for the art you draw not for yourself but for them. fanart is not a bad thing, but it can be addicting when your getting so likes, praise, comments, request. So my advice today, is to slack up on it and ask yourself what do YOU want to draw, what story do YOU want to tell, What idea is in your head right now that’s  nagging at you right now to get it down on paper. and even if someone doesn’t notice your work there is always an audience out there that will appreciate it. Whatever it may be someone will notice you and be inspired by your work. So that’s my two cents on fan art. Tomorrow i’m going to post a few W.I.P for some upcoming projects, and a new post of a technique i recently discovered i like to call it spontaneous sketching. It can help if you find yourself stuck on a drawing. Until then stay tuned, and I’ll see you all tomorrow.

Hey guys, if alot of you read yesterdays journal entry, my first journal entry actually. I wrote how confused i was with a drawing i was doing. I didn't know if i should go back to the drawing and finish it, or just put it aside for another time and move on to something else. Thanks to a motivational comment that  i read yesterday, i decided to continue the project. And i'm happy to say that it is almost done, and should be posted sometime today. Whoever you are, thank you for your comment of motivation.

So today i was able to get a lot done, even though i feel like i didn't do shit.
The last thing on my list, is finishing this drawing i have been struggling with. I got so frustrated with the motherfucker that I tore it up. I want to go back to it, but i really feel like moving on to a new project, I just don't know. Should i go at it again or just leave it alone for now and move on. I really don't know. I would love to add new content here as soon as i can to show everyone what i do. To anyone reading this what do you all think I should do?